We got a bit of sad news yesterday: we will not be able to have the home birth we planned. Not because it would have been unsafe, but because of other factors out of our control. We’re very disappointed and a bit angry, and still processing. (Baby girl is still healthy, exactly on target for growth, and crazy active. I’ll get on updating those bump pictures soon, I promise.)
The funny thing about it is, that while this is certainly frustrating, it’s not tragic by any long shot (and you know that we know tragic). It’s more on the emotional level of a breakup. At least, I seem to be reacting to it like a breakup, since all I want to do is blow off homework, eat chocolate, play video games, and cast on new knitting projects.
At least, that’s how I imagine I would respond to a boyfriend breaking up with me over email. I understand this is a little eclectic. How do you respond when something frustrating and sad happens and you just need to be nice to yourself?
(The chocolate is dark chocolate non-pareils; the game is L. A. Noire which I’ve had for months and not taken the time to try; the project is a last-minute commission from a husband who wants to give his wife something really special for Hanukah and picked a smashing luxury yarn. Isn’t that the sweetest thing?)